Road Trip!

"I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move." ~Robert Louis Stevenson


Yes! I am a mere days away from my road trip move to California from Arizona/New Mexico. I am excited but sad. Excited to be back to the place I was brought up in, my children and friends I grew up with. Sad, because I am leaving behind a lot of really great people and friends that I have made in the last nearly two years of living in New Mexico.

Am I ready? Emotionally....yes. But at the same time, there is so much unprepared. However, time isn't on my side and like it or not, I must go.

I am happy that I will have my little brother with me. He's been staying with family out here and I'll be taking him back home. So at least I'll have some company...lets hope I don't end up leaving him on the side of the road somewhere ey?

Its a BIG, LONG trip! Just thinking about all the drive time and "sit" time it makes my back ache and cringe! 832 miles to be exact!



That's 12 hours and 35 minutes of drive time. Not including stopping for bathrooms, food and of course fuel. I am not looking forward to that part of the trip either! According to Mapquest's calculations, giving my car a safe estimate of 32 miles per gallon. It estimated me to spend around $83 in fuel...considering gas prices are around $3/gallon I am not surprised!

I don't even have my pay check yet and it's already spent! All complaining aside though...I will be so thrilled to be back in Modesto!



I am hoping and praying that I land a good job opportunity soon! I got a call today to come in for an interview, I had to tell them that unfortunately I won't be available until next week. I hate hearing that change in tone in their voice...I hope that they come to find out what my friends are telling me; that I am worth waiting for.

My trip starts at 0500 hours on Saturday, January 29th! Any prayers for safe travels and a smooth trip are much welcomed! I'll do my best to keep all my FB buddies updated with the status of my trip via my BlackBerry (aka my new best friend).



Until next time...

A New Change

"All healing is first a healing of the heart." ~Carl Townsend

For anyone that has been following my blog posts at all I think its obvious that I've changed the title, look and as you'll find out the direction I am going with this. After some thought I really don't want this blog or the rest of my life to revolve around the fact that I am divorced. I want this to be positive, uplifting and healing.

I am doing a little soul searching, and looking to my Lord and Savior for the path that he wants me on for the rest of my life. In my experience, I have always had a more content path when I am following Him. Is it easy? Not on your life. Is there peace? Absolutely.

"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me." -John 14:1



So, I am a little dented and scratched. But as this song (one of my new favorites) says...on his shoulders I can see. I am excited to find out what God has for me, I am going to be patient though, I am a servant of His will.

Along with spiritual and emotional healing...I also need healing of my body. I have a hard time tolerating gluten and lactose. Lately with all the stress that I have been under I feel that my body is attacking itself. I need to force myself into a pattern of self-discipline and change my eating habits for good. Once I do that I will hopefully be suffer free. But I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...

"Do not love sleep, or you will become poor; Open your eyes, and you will be satisfied with food." ~Proverbs 20:13



Another thing that I need to do...lose about 50lbs of body weight. My BMI is seriously overweight, some of them even putting me on borderline obese status. When people look at me they're shocked, "you don't look overweight at all." they tell me. Well...I am. Though I need to be happy with the body that God has given me. And don't get me wrong..I am. But this is also HIS body, its HIS temple, and I am not taking care of it.

I feel sick, and heavy and I need to get healthy and energetic. That is the person that I am inside, in my heart I am very outgoing, but my body is a restriction because I am not physically who I need to be. It's always been difficult to stay in an exercise routine and actively work out. When things get boring I lose interest or I stop for one day and I lose the habit. But this time, I know I can do it..

"But Jesus looked at them and said to them; 'With men, this is impossible, but with God all things are possible'." ~Matthew 19:26

So yes.. I can do this, I will do this, I am doing this....because with GOD all things are possible and CHRIST gives me strength.

Until next time...


For more information on Gluten and Lactose Intolerance please visit these websites:

1. Celiac disease is an autoimmune digestive disease that damages the villi of the small intestine and interferes with absorption of nutrients from food. One in 133 Americans have celiac disease.

2. Lactose intolerance is the inability to digest a sugar called lactose that is found in milk and dairy products.

Party Time?

"Being divorced is like being hit by a Mack truck. If you live through it, you start looking very carefully to the right and to the left." ~Jean Kerr



Well, it looks like I am a single woman again. We signed our papers last night, I took it a lot harder than I thought I would. Even though certain things happen and I am still hurt and bitter about a lot of it; just the realization that my marriage, that the last two years of my life were burning away with a scribble of ink was a hard pill to swallow.

But alas, I suppose this means its time to move on. I always thought that moving on from something, meant bigger and better things. And though that is my hope, it doesn't feel as good as I thought it should. With this journey into another divorce I've noticed that there are a lot of ways to celebrate such a life change- as if it should be a happy occasion. To the extent of celebrating its counterpart: a wedding.

Here we have a divorce cake:


A Just Divorced banner hanging on the back of a car:


The BLACK veil of divorce:


A Divorce Party planner:


And here you can even get formal invitations to "celebrate your freedom":


Am I the only one that sees the resemblance here? Are we now living in an age where divorce is as celebrated as the marriage that started it?? Does that mean that I am supposed to be celebrating and feeling good about this.

My heart is broken. Is that what I am celebrating??

Ok, ok I know I am sounding uptight about it. But really...I am just too busy picking up the pieces right now to throw a party.

Will I be ok? Yes. Will I be chillaxing with family and friends on my own time and whim? Absolutely. Will I go reserve a room in vegas, order a cake and celebrate til the wee hours in the morning that I have a failed marriage under my belt? I'm gonna say no.

Until next time....

Making New Goals

"If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else." ~Lawrence J. Peter

This saying is so true. Its true for me, anyway. For many years I've lived life in a lost sort of way, I've just done things on a whim, enjoying life in the moment. In a way, its the best thing to do...but one can end up quite lost--like myself. I think living life in the moment so that you aren't disappointed that your plans don't work out just like you want them to is great. But I think one must have goals as well, in order to, at the very least, keep yourself on track!

So! With the inspiration gained from some of my friends I'm composing a 30 before 30 list. In essence its a list of thirty things that I want to do before I turn thirty...that's in a little over three years, YIKES! I better get crackin!

1. Graduate college

2. Find a good job in my desired career field.

3. Read the bible, cover to cover.


4. Write my novel.

5. Finish my novel.

6. Get my novel published.

7. Move closer to the beach.

8. Buy a house/condo.


9. Go on a date...maybe a few.

10. Take a trip to Ireland


11. Visit Paris

12. Take a train ride to Rome.

13. Buy a new wardrobe.

14. Buy a new car.


15. Cut my hair.

16. Grow my hair back.

17. Spend a summer in Maine.

18. Road trip to Canada.

19. Visit family in Seattle.


20. Volunteer at a Soup kitchen on Christmas.

21. Re-learn to play the piano.

22. Learn to play the Cello.


23. Meet a favorite band.

24. Meet a handful of my closest friends whom I have never met face-to-face yet.

25. Walk/Run in a Charity Walk, (breast cancer, etc.)

26. Have a girl's night out...in Vegas.


27. Start writing second novel.

28. Finish second novel.

29. Get second novel published.

30. Write a 40 before 40 list.

Painless enough! Some of them I have doubts, but there's a lot of them that I CAN do if I just put my mind and hard work to it. Feel free to compose on of your own!

Day 1 of....

Hi, and welcome to my new blog!

Well *sigh* here we go again... I am cringing at the thought of being divorced, and for the second time. I can't say I am fully responsible but I'm sure he'd beg to differ.

Right now I am just focusing on making a new life, independent to myself and my God.

I'll make this short and sweet, but I hope you enjoy coming along my journey. I've lived and loved and learned A LOT!

Who knows what the future and the Lord has in store for me, HE does, that's who.

I'll be back to update you all on how I'm doing and what I'm up to in this "new" life of mine. I am sure it won't be all its cracked up to be. But it will be none the less.

Enjoy!