A New Change

"All healing is first a healing of the heart." ~Carl Townsend

For anyone that has been following my blog posts at all I think its obvious that I've changed the title, look and as you'll find out the direction I am going with this. After some thought I really don't want this blog or the rest of my life to revolve around the fact that I am divorced. I want this to be positive, uplifting and healing.

I am doing a little soul searching, and looking to my Lord and Savior for the path that he wants me on for the rest of my life. In my experience, I have always had a more content path when I am following Him. Is it easy? Not on your life. Is there peace? Absolutely.

"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me." -John 14:1



So, I am a little dented and scratched. But as this song (one of my new favorites) says...on his shoulders I can see. I am excited to find out what God has for me, I am going to be patient though, I am a servant of His will.

Along with spiritual and emotional healing...I also need healing of my body. I have a hard time tolerating gluten and lactose. Lately with all the stress that I have been under I feel that my body is attacking itself. I need to force myself into a pattern of self-discipline and change my eating habits for good. Once I do that I will hopefully be suffer free. But I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me...

"Do not love sleep, or you will become poor; Open your eyes, and you will be satisfied with food." ~Proverbs 20:13



Another thing that I need to do...lose about 50lbs of body weight. My BMI is seriously overweight, some of them even putting me on borderline obese status. When people look at me they're shocked, "you don't look overweight at all." they tell me. Well...I am. Though I need to be happy with the body that God has given me. And don't get me wrong..I am. But this is also HIS body, its HIS temple, and I am not taking care of it.

I feel sick, and heavy and I need to get healthy and energetic. That is the person that I am inside, in my heart I am very outgoing, but my body is a restriction because I am not physically who I need to be. It's always been difficult to stay in an exercise routine and actively work out. When things get boring I lose interest or I stop for one day and I lose the habit. But this time, I know I can do it..

"But Jesus looked at them and said to them; 'With men, this is impossible, but with God all things are possible'." ~Matthew 19:26

So yes.. I can do this, I will do this, I am doing this....because with GOD all things are possible and CHRIST gives me strength.

Until next time...


For more information on Gluten and Lactose Intolerance please visit these websites:

1. Celiac disease is an autoimmune digestive disease that damages the villi of the small intestine and interferes with absorption of nutrients from food. One in 133 Americans have celiac disease.

2. Lactose intolerance is the inability to digest a sugar called lactose that is found in milk and dairy products.